Saturday, October 08, 2005
-defeat or be defeated?
prelims results haf been out for two days.oh wells.as usual my results sucks.without the help of moderation, i would have ended up in pre-u.and sum words that my brother said really hurt.it made me further demoralised.apparently he had the same points that i had when it was his prelims.is that contradiction? but perhaps after having been thru it, he might me warning me of the difficulties i might haf in gg SAJC.seriously, wads wrong wif that school?jerilyn's aunt make SAJC sound as tho it has real LOW standards.but i think if u haf the determination to do well, u will actually do well.stastics are stated just so pple like jerilyn's aunt haf sumthing to talk about especially when they are not from the school.no offence, jerilyn.im sorry to haf to quote ur aunt, but really, dun u think its absurd as well?
went to the hello! store just now at noon to get my new hp.apparently hello! store has little or almost none NICE fones around.i give up trying to get a new fone.maybe im just fated with the lousy phone i haf now, which auto-off 5 times a day.and its getting worse.duhh.ahh.wadever.well, mummy refused to let me get a nice and EXPENSIVE fone.so wadever.erps.that's so childish.wadever.not really in the mood.
watch Goal!.for all soccer fans out there.i think Goal! is a really nice movie and its SOOOOOO worth $9.50.im NOT saying this sarcastically.i meant it.its REALLY NICE.jiaqi was leaning over towards kenny and mumbling things to him which made me feel abandoned in that little corner.hah.and my peppermint chocolate mysteriously DISAPPEARED.i haf a feeling i accidentally dropped it in the cinema.-screams.went church wif jiaqi and we arrived REAL late.reason? cos Goal! cut into the time for mass.and we arrived at the church right after gospel.i was wondering wads the point of going since we were so late.and the nice cab driver gave us a 30 cents discount.thank you, uncle.well, we almost died while jaywalking on the same road twice in town.i think we are real dumb.duhh.i think its times like these, when people test how long they get to stay on earth.
then after mass, jerilyn's parents brought us out for dinner.so sweet ehh.we had cereal prawn.-yummy.thru out the entire dinner, we were talking in codes.haha.it was uncomfortable.and i was practically aslp on my feet cos i slept late last nite and had to wake up early this morning.not having enuff slp sucks.jerilyn, if u are reading this, help me thank ur parents.dinner was nice.i think jerilyn looked weird in a tight tee-shirt, pinkish-purple skirt and dangling earrings with her usual hairstyle.maybe its just the way she walks.LOL.next sat hafta go NJC openhse.cos need to intro pretty jiaqi to suihang, hor, lijing?LOL.(private joke for those who dun understand.)
sighs.within this short and sweet weekend, many things happens simultaneously, pretty quickly.maybe not so sweet after all.farewell is in one week's time, i dun think im ready for it.but then, which psycho is?even tho, i entered cgs with much regrets, the thoughts of leaving crescent with 4 yrs of memories and 4 yrs worth of friendship is utterly DEPRESSING.i bet everyone else around me agrees too.but then, think abt it, there is still handphones and internet.
for jiaqi and melissa's information, i am not an INFLUENTIAL person.if the person just so happen to think in my terms, then its cos the person has a LACK of viewpoint.i dun give a damn about wad u guys labeled me as long as its reasonable.u guys says it as tho its wrong for me to be influential.WADEVER.
and jiaqi, u said that when its time to let go, we shld.thinking back about sumthing u said to me on the fone, u seem to have contradicted ur OWN point.for ur sake, we were talking about a certain relationship and u told me u cant bear to let go.lydia wants me to pass on the msg that u shld let go cos u are a catholic and its wrong.i agree too.its simply opposite of wad u just told me today.
to cynthia: ehh momok.i duno wad the hell is going on.i dun even think u will read this.maybe i will write u a letter later after my brother vacates my room.i noe that u think we left you out.and if u deny it one more time, im just not gonna believe u.i duno wad to say.maybe wadever im saying may sound harsh but im sorry.being antisocial is a personal choice, if u think that we purposely left you out, we didnt.we always tried to include you but apparently it never succeed.the only thing that i think was wad affected ur social-biliity was the fact that u had low self-esteem and u thot that wadever u said was out of point.maybe our attitude shows u that, but i doubt that we ever openly told u straight in the face wif a serious tone that wad u said was unnecessary.the only times u talked was when melissa went out wif us.as compared to melissa, are we that unworthy of u saying a little more than a few words?i think i made my point.i shall rethink about writing that letter.
as i said before, wad i convey on messenger does always reflect wad i really feel at that particular moment.jiaqi, caught this?
today has been a long day.lydia is a NICE person to msg to cos she can brighten ur day at any moment of the day.LOL.guess i will just turn of the comp now and go sleep.pokk.
`things happen in a flash.wads reality?
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